Don't ask about the tittle

Yeps 

I am just being random

He he he

Checking a blog randomly

In a random place

In a random time

Is a randomized day!

Maaf!

So, lagi di tukang cuci mobil

Bingung mau ngapain

Suami lagi main hp

Mau ngajak ngobrol juga males, karena yg ada di otak ini hanya topik yang serius yang gak okeh di timing lg cuci mobil dan berisik dan banyak orang

Ok

So saya cari kesibukan, sampai gak penting banget chexk email kantor!! Hehe! It's Sunday hunz!! Come on lahh.. 😁

Lalu teringat iseng check blog ahh, eh kenapa gak sosial media sih? Gak punya! Eh bukan gak ke instal! Karena saya yang males ngapusin foto video or males pindahin ke memory. Iya gak langganan Icloud! Next deh yaa...

Jadi so

Saya cuma mau bersyukur atas berkat yang Tuhan berikan ke saya dan keluarga. Udah usaha kaya apaaan tau ke satu hal, eh tiba2 dikasih dari hal lain. Gak aneh sih, karena memang pengalaman yang gk kita duga itu sering terjadi. Diingetin terus aja biar selalu bersyukur. Terima kasih Tuhan!

Udahan dulu ya, dah selesai. Suami kalau saya masih sibuk pegang hp pasti ngomel! Hehe

Love youuu!!

Kamu nanti bakalan di hapus gak ya? kaya semua orang udah gak kesini lagi..

Menulis panjang di blog itu udah gak ngetrend, menulis panjang ya di Caption Instagram aja.. Atau menulis di dalam video, seperti yang ada di Reels atau Tiktok. Kayanya informasi atau tulisan panjang semakin gak penting ya. hehe, Iya Let The people called Netizen katanya yg decide based on their own assumption, for example kaya liat satu video A tanpa caption apa2, or hanya dengan caption kata2 bijak or yg indah2 yg cuma copy paste.. hehe, lalu biarlah mereka The People, The so called Netizen berimajinasi dengan pikiran mereka sendiri.. 

Contoh : Liat Video si A lagi di Bali having Fun

Netizen : eh gila keren bgt, enak banget gila si A, ya ampun itu dia dapet duit dari mana, eh eh jangan2 dia pergi sama si B, itu mah dia cuma ambil video ornag aja dia gabungin.. hehhehe.. Sulit sekalih ya...

(Aduh ini kepala loncat2, gara2 dengerin Leica lagi nonton video)

I've got so many point of views and Ideas and concerns that I really really want to share but sad is only stuck in my head. 

Okay hanny, hanny, hanny stay focus! I know writing is never been easy for many people, this is only your babbling, you can put those ideas seriously by putting a draft first, okay. Sekarang kamu babbling aja ya, mengisi waktu, kapan lagi kamu bisa nulis kannn, kesempatan ini.

Okay so what I wanted to say in my first blog in 2023 is..

I don't have a feeling of writing a plan or goal or something in 2023, I cannot do that this year, I am not sure why, but it's okay, though actually I am that typical of writing what happened in 2022 and what should I do in 2023 kinnda thing. But again, I just feel that I am more feeling every steps that I made, I become more self aware of the things that I do. I learn more each day consciously by not having any plan or goals because I am looking forward to have that feeling and mood, but I cannot, so yeah just let it be. 

Yaudah intinya di tgl 5 Januari ini, I feel that I learn so many things just as a starter of the year. But one thing for sure, setiap tahun I want to stay grateful and can help people and be a good impact at least for one or two person. I love you blog! I love you friends!

Love,

ms.hunz

My body still waking up at a normal time hours even though it is a holiday, sorry not a holiday, but THE holiday. This is the time that I am waiting after a full school year, they called it a well-deserved break. 

But my first week full of organising, cleaning up stuffs and helping my sister who got sick because of the dengue fever. And this is my first time who really can do a self reflection and contemplation because I am too tired and overwhelmed. Not too mention the plumbing problem that made so much effort to do the dishes and laundry. The reason why is that, I did all the things by my self. I don't want to be drained too much. I need to slow down and take a step back for all the 'small things' that happened, it is surely small I need to be smart to find the solution.

The distractions here came from so many aspects, many areas, many ways. I don't know how important is to manage distractions, this skill right here, I hope to teach my children to learn it earlier. The easy distraction comes from how easy is to get the things that we enjoy, a one way click of watching a 40 episode of Netflix, a finger tips of strolling down the lane your Warriors Championship story, your willing to add more skills in to your resume, dealing with deadline, helping husband to build brands, thinking of how to lose weights while other things like dealing with daily house hold chores, what to cook or even order for today, what to play with my children and also how to support my husband in every way. 

I know I need to push the pause button. I need to step away and look from outside. What should I do things differently, I still need 7 weeks before the school start. This post is a big matter. I hope to share a good thing for the next post.

Love

hunz

And there is a second cup of coffee on my table and jemuran baju in front of me, not so a beautiful view i know, but this is my home.. :)

So why write again in the blog? because I just miss blogging? literally nop! hehe, karena kalau mau nulis di buku, susah aja di aksesnya kalau mau liat tiba2...

Karena sudah menulis dari SD, dulu punya banyak banget diary, sampai bertumpuk2, bahkan lembaran kertas bertebaran di mana2, hehe dengan harapan jangan sampai lupa taruh mana nanti di baca orang.. hehe, trus tiba2 ada blog, dannn seru banget bisa baca lagi keseharian waktu muda dulu di blog.. hehe, tinggal klick, gak perlu bongkar bongkar lemari.. hihi

So yeah, panjang ya alasanya, walau emang masih punya buku harian juga, karena memang kalau personal lebih baik disimpen aja, walaupun kalau di share di sini gak ad yg baca juga. hehe (jaga2 kalau nanti tiba2 viral dan famous).. hueekkss.. hahah

So yeah, how's you treating life? that's the phrase that I choose instead of using the normal saying like "how's life treating you?" don't blame life, don't point finger to something and someone, more on how you yourself adapt and survive in life.

So let's go to my random points :

1. Di umur 30 something ini, phase yg hati2 banget, tanpa sadar orang sudah mulai kehilangan jati diri dan arah, banyak yang berubah, banyak yg terjadi di sekitarku.. dulu mereka gak gitu, tp di lingkungan baru, keinginan baru. dan lain2nya, mereka berubah.. bersyukur ada yg menjadi lebih baik, namun banyaknya tidak. I am not a perfect person, but I can assure you I am 100% not perfect, just a person who always try to keep my feet underground and  to feed my soul in God. Bukannya I am okay then my surrounding is 100 % okay, I live with other people, so when I see others in a wrong path, I also need to help them as a way of keeping my surrounding healthy, save and sound. But again, as human I always believe that God is in control. I try to remind my self that upah dosa adalah maut, not literally you die! but maut in a bigger picture is like more in the destruction not only your life but also your family, your love ones. Iblis hanya butuh satu langkah untuk masuk ke hati kita, dan Tuhan mengizinkan iblis untuk mencobai manusia. So, if you want to go away from lembah kekelaman, hanya Tuhanlah penolongmu. Amin!

2. Saat ada masalah, kayanya kita menikmati banget ya rasanya dalam kondisi tersebut, in a way of kita nyaman dengan ketidaknyamanan kita, which i think that kita gak mau cari solusi atau keluar dari sana karena sudah terlalu nyaman dan gak berani or even gak tau caranya minta tolong untuk melangkah keluar. I do think process is needed, surely do, tapi jangan kelamaan, saat nanti sudah bisa menerima dan berani melangkah, akhirnya saat melihat kebelakang you will be so grateful you could go through that and proud that you were able to go out "in style", hehe.. When I looked back to what happened to me, I feel grateful that situation happened, it's not fun, so challenging, but I am now learn something valuable, and I know that i will not make the same mistake again by "enjoying" the problem too much, instead of that now I know that you cannot change people's feeling about you, you cannot control people's thoughts about you, know your self, worth yourself and just remember people who love and support you genuinely.

3. Kemarin ikut test toefl, setelah 5 tahun gak ikutan, hehe, susahhh, readingnya oh My Goodness! hehe, padahal mau banget belajar, tapi apa daya gak sempet terus, padahahl sejujurnya aku sudah berubah lohhh.. hehe, anaknya dah tau arti preparation, sempet sih latihan sekali tapi ya kurang, hehe, nah tapi keren juga kalau dulu pasti nyesel banget gak belajar (padahal gak ada niat belajar), hehe, tp sekarang gak nyesel (ngapain juga udah lewat), lebih ke kalau jelek ngulang lagi, dan ya lumayan lah uang daftarnya, ya makanya latihan dulu baru daftar yaa.. heheh

4. Haduh, memang udah gak bisa kelamaan nulis, memang udah beda, gak bisa semau2nya nulis kaya waktu muda dulu, barusan aja anak dateng ingetin  " Mom kok mom kompor nyala gk masak apa2." zzzzzz, udahan dulu ya, next cerita lagi.. tenang is not a way of giving up my "kesukaan menulis dan curhat gak jelas" but more in "Hanny nextnya gak usah multitask deh, bukannya gak bisa, udah susahh.. hehe." So yeah I will find a good timing just to enjoy my self writing and taking a sip of my coffee. (Slrrppp *backsound, red)

Selamat Siang

- Malas bercerita dan merangkai cerita.. hehe

- Kembali ke sini karena sedang lagi staycation semalem, trus gak bawa ipad buat gambar (sengaja menikmati sesuatu yg berbeda), gak bawa note book buat nulis (sengaja juga) dan saya sudah terlalu bosan memasukan segala informasi yang ada di dunia si Maya sana. 

- Dunia sudah sangat berubah blogger, sekaran perubahan sangat sangat cepat.. dulu platform seperti blog bisa bertahan puluhan tahun, skrg sesuatu yg baru pasti di ikuti dengan saingannya, jadi ya capek sih ngikutin semua orang.

- Blogger sudah tidak trend, karena orang orang sudah mulai pindah ke sesuatu yg ringkas seperti instagram.

- Orang orang sudah tidak appreciate easy comunication, semuanya sepertinya mudah cepat dan "murah."

- Ada orang yg tidak pernah kena covid sama sekali dalam waktu 3 tahun, ada yg 3 kali kena dalam jangka waktu 3 tahun, saya yang terakhir. Never been easy. Too long to share.

- Otak saya emang random penuh dengan poin-poin yang berterbangan yang harus di tangkap satu satu.

- Jangan lupa dihitun keuangan hunz.

- Jadi han, udah mau nambah umur lagi nih, jangan lupa, it's not all about you hunz! mau semua orang menggembor2kan self-love, tp sebenarnya when you don't think too much of your self, instead for other people (genuinenly for other people who in needs, bukan karena biar mereka suka or seek for their validation) when you do that, shows that you already FULL of yourself that you want to do more. 

- Ohya, kemarin bertemu dengan sekelompok nenek nenek dan kakek kakek, mereka having so much fun! kind of nenek dan kakek yg bukannya gaul dan merasa muda, justru mereka terlihat lebih muda karena mereka so happy and having so much fun. Mereka lucu foto2, gak bawa keluarga or cucu cucu mereka, tapi kaya satu pertemanan gitu. In my mind, I will enjoy this phase of my life! taking care and getting so busy with my children. Saat melihat mereka dan berandai, kalau nanti seumuran mereka mungkin MJ dan Leica lagi kuliah di luar negeri, or sibuk dengan kegiatan mereka masing - masing. So, I will ENJOY and APPRECIATE every little things with them. 

- Yaudah gak usah kelamaan nulis, semenit lagi jam 6. Mau muter muter dulu, trying to enjoy life and breath fresh air!

Love you teman teman..

xoxo

hunz